Adult Empire

Today went for a late Mother's Day celebration =] Nevertheless, I had a great time with them =] I was able to understand my parents more and relate to them .... I discovered that I had numerous of disagreement and objections towards their statement... I realised it was might be the gap interval between us was ultimately long =[ We were chatting about Christianity, I refused to say anything about my religion or should I say relation with God ? =]

Majority of my relatives and kins are all Buddhist ... I find difficult to understand explain... They told me to feel free to speak ! Okay so I continued and insisted a long ! Never mind, we dropped the subject after a while -.- THe longer it drags, it became seemingly complicated, I did not want a happy dinner to be a devastating one ....

Next they asked about me, generally what I am thinking about ! My head was blank for a moment, then started pondering =] Follow on, they questioned me, how do I deal with it ? The question they ask has never occurred to me ! I was wondering so much thing had happened... Without fail, everything that I spotted were not pleasant ones ! Usually are those guilt and jealousy !

Well, I had stopped being a atrocious person... Living my life blindly as I move on ! Retrospecting, I had lots of evidence to prove that I am found guilty of.... Countless ! My mum was worried so told me not to think so much ! I was frustrated but kept cool, so replied to her that some things I need to think more about it ! IT really concerns my future .... Who is going feed me ?

Okay lah, She told me to release all my grudges ! I had already set them free the yesterday =] A New beginning of me =] Some thing strange about my parents is that they dislike me being over grown ! Their opinion including my Aunt's were that live the Teenage life like normal teenagers do ! WOW ! Fantastic is not it ? Interesting background !

I know what they are trying to signal me but planning really needs to start now ! I am 14 going to 15 this year ! Nobody except God will help me ! Never anyone ! So far.... Minor , YEs ! Major , no ! Not neglecting previous year, one did =] He changed my entire life upside down =] I felt that he is the one who can show me what life brings ! Now ?! Forget it, everyone is busy ! Not comparing here, not complaining ! It jsut feel not upright !

This year, I am all a lone ! Deal with my own disasters ! Everytime it felt like a pebble been thrown at me ... MY Aunt shared with me an interesting theory =] She pointed out to the cup XD She continued, '' If we hold the cup for a few moment, It does not feel heavy at all. After 12 hours, the weight of the cup will be there ! '' She told me why not let go your inner complexity ! Just like letting go the cup =] It is tough for me ! I am quite stubborn at certain times !

Now looking at my progress ! I had succeeded a little =] Promoting from NT to NA ! Getting all my work and assignments done =] Able to write a long full written english text ! It takes time ! Today I am able to sit here typing out all this with conciousness ! A little la ! Not many ! Hahas ! Never mind ! Who gives a damn ! I am the reader and author ! Nobody else except me XD

Adults are very strange and unique personality.... Some hope their sons and daughters to be mature and think steadfastly with logical sense, some giving freedom .... My parents don't expect much of me but I have expectation of myself ! Quite high =] Fulfilling it is my duty and my goal XD I will rejoice whenever I achieve it ! Not stopping there, I persist =] Some things I did not think so much ! I am careful here ! Not everything I had persisted ! I want to change it around ! I want it to be appear in everything ! =] Nothing more nothing less =]

Encountering Adults' mind is extremely tedious ! Sad that my parents think that I am thinking too much for my future ! Haiz ! I will just continue leading myself to a better and righteous life =] That's the wat I should be =] Optimistic person =] Believe in God, He is almighty ! Praise him forgiving me life and such a wonderful mind =]

I will stop here,
Gerwin









I end off with a SMILE =]