Painful treats =[

I was uncertain about it actually =[ Most of the time, I often got into troubles when interacting with someone =[ Tragic are bound to happen to me =[ I felt that why must be me =[ Am I supposed to learn something ? Probably ? I am unsure =[

All this recent occurrence , left me into deep sorrow =[ I hope that I will not suffer from depression =[ God bless =] Amen =[ Whenever, someone turned his tail to me =[ This unexplainable thoughts appear =[ I tend to remember every bits and pieces of bitter, painful and hurting events =[ Not blaming anyone here =[ So don't get flare up or else I will rebuke !

I am a extreme polarise person, mostly to the pessimism side =[ I really had great desire for all this to end once and for all =[ I failed through many attempts of trying to get rid of it =[ Am I supposed to learn a lesson and so as to teach me about life ? Maybe =[ If it is that so, then I have no comments =[

I don't want to ask ''why me questions'' as it is awfully erroneous thought to have =[ Everybody will hate the hell out of me if I start to ask that question =[ Especially people closest to me =[ I have great fear that I might lose someone eventually =[

Numerous nightmares could be the evidence for that =[ Can anyone, console me =[ ? Or else I had to do it on my own =[ I think God wants me to have a backbone and stand on my own feet =[ Over dependence will cause me to be lazy =[ Over convenience is not worth my becoming ignorant =[ I think everything is a skill =] Some which require time to set in and make amendments accordingly =]

As I am typing out =] I feel more relieved =] Felt the torture and painstaking feeling left my soul =] Some brilliant light is shining inside me =] Am grateful for that =] Whenever some thing turns sour, I will weep =[ Quite a sissy action =] But after I wept, I feel much better =] Cry out my bitterness rather than keeping inside until one day it overcomes you =] take over your entire body =] Next moment, you killed someone without even knowing you did it ... Very dangerous so therefore take earlier signs of it =] quickly adjust before it turns permanent =]

Thank you Lord =] My everlasting healer and forgiver =] Your grace had touched me =] your almighty hands brings me closer to success XD Amen =] Tomorrow will be a great day =]

Love today and more tomorrow =]











I end off with a........ SMILE =]