A slight converstion =]

A conversation with Xiang Xiang :

Today after my CCA, I received a message from Jia hui and Lyn as they were asking me out to study in the library which made me shocked.... Well, my sentiments exactly, it turns out to be the controversy -.- Well, didn't expect that but at least done some of my mathematical sums =] It's the new beginning of the year, so meeting up with challenges is generally obvious =]

We left the library just an hour since I sat down and started solving my mathematical problem =[ Quite pathetic right ! Their persistence in studies are so limited -.- Well, never mind, it does not matter to me as they have their own reasons and excuses, it does matter to my precious 2010 time =] So we went to a foreign place named ''Fu Shan'', whatever the spelling as it it is new to me but not to them because they often hang around there for some sort of excitement =] I can't imagine myself playing Catching with one another -.- It's just like recalling my old image of me... Playful and making nuisance out of it =] Well, that was the past, work towards the future it's better =] Though it will be a permanent scar, but if with anticipating changes to my personality and characteristic, I believe the scar will recover =] Meaning to make it a positive tragic =] Being optimistic is yet to be tedious but manageable =] Always hearing others saying ''Be positive and don't be pessimism about our thoughts'' with ease ! Yes, true ! The resolution is HOW to become which make everyone giving up =] Like me, always believe the untruth then the realistic =] It's complicated =] Moreover, everyone hates people telling them how to react to certain problems =] It's interesting isn't it ? People go around telling how to live right where they are having a hard time trying to listen to others opinion of them =] Amazing =] Even me also get confuse!

Okay! Resuming my actual topic =] I was talking about Xiang and me chatting on the way back on the train =] We were communicating about our past studies and some private but not so =] I questioned him ''Do you speak with your family members ?'' He replied ''I do it often and especially my sister! Mostly ending up quarreling '' =] So he return my question. I was a little paralysis ''I don't have such exciting moments all the time but I do have doubts =]''. Not completely negative but there are some memorable time =] I always try remembering all the joyous time, it seems very complex thing to do.... This year I have many resolution apart from academics.... There are many inner setbacks that cause that to =] It's alright =] I made quite a good progress through a couple of years =] If not I will not be here telling my own personal historical moments -.-

I had many things to emphasise on but just find it complicated to say =]

I end off with a..... SMILE =]

My New sport =]

Something unbelievable had been twist into one of my favourite =] :

Cool today post seems to be similar like what our ''Beloved'' teacher, Mrs Smahon, had interpret to us yesterday and today =] Hahas XD At first, I didn't expect that basketball was within my reach but slowly, playing a few rounds, I began to develop my interest in that particular sport =] That sport train us to jump high and higher co-ordination required while playing...

Well, I must confirm something that, everything we do starts with listening =] Hey ! You guys know something attracting on television advertisement hahas Prudential and their slogan is ''Always listening and something which I could not remember'' =] I think I got it ''Always listening and understanding'' just a rough estimation of the slogan =] Seriously, I couldn't say it is entirely the same meaning as what our English teacher has taught as it neither any disaster about that nor something joyous had happened in the beginning hahas =] It is quite an unexpected thing that something I usually dislike had been a controversy feeling -.- I actually do have a motivation when I started playing basketball =] My standing broad jump normally doesn't exceed 200 cm -.- So hopefully jumping will make my thigh muscles fitter and firmer =] Hahas =] I admit that when I play I usually act a little sloppy as in slow in reaction and weak -.- Not the first time someone had inform me that, maybe, couple of times already... So if I don't change the way I am, no one else would ! Meaning if I don't change the way I performed, probably will not see any changes upon my previous general performance.... =] I read a book which had taught values of life =] Many common thoughts and feelings were expressed in the book which many people being pessimism with their emotion and mindset =] Once, we had the determination of anything, our mind will work towards it ultimately =]

I spoken to Soon Chuan that, I don't know, he was finding some complication in generating ideas for mother tongue homework which also drive me crazy when I was doing... Fortunately, I wasn't insane after that -.- Amen ! =] I told him ''Our mind does not understand the meaning of I don't know''. Looking at the author's perspective in the book, I was in a state of dilemma... Of course we do understand fully on what is I don't know, just that the mind will never get it =] You know what I meant ? =] Never mind if you don't =] As I am also quite devastated =] I will reconstruct it =] but the meaning remains the same =] It is like a mental movie playing in our mind, example we are in an absent of everything that entertains you so you were obliged to find something else to do, ''I don't know what to do'' you said with ease =] But instead of doing nothing, your mind will starting working for something to substitute with our monotony of excitement =] There, I made a new affirmation =] Read it a few times, you will get it soon =] My English aren't difficult to interpret =]

Okay okay =] Enough of explanations =] Enjoy =]

I signed off with a.... SMILE =]

My Doubts are over !

Fear that living inside me for a life time LONG :

Yesterday night, I made a terrible nightmare and causes me to toss and turn around the bed... This wasn't the first time I had nightmares that made me frightened to the point whereby I had to rise up from my bed, perspiring ! I aren't sure why my mind just couldn't relax... Everyone says I always look tenser than them... but I feel that I am not !! Though all this nightmares proven to me that it was caused by excessive use of my mind... No wonder it seems rather tough for me to post everytime I begin attempting to type =] Perhaps, it is because of my anxiety... Well, sharing to my dear readers as to give an relevant excuse why nowadays I seriously had some mental mermory blocked and somehow or rather it is still in my mind circulating but just can't recall at all ! It used to be that kind of stage whereby I couldn't even remember a single thing during a diagnostic test ! My mind went as blank as a clean sheet of paper... I slowly began to realised how it had affected me so much than I expected... I tend to calm down by watching some telly programs but it always end up having a sense of guilt inside me =[ Or I tend to focus and concentrate on whatever that was appearing on the screen of the television =[ Sadly, it became my habitual as in I just can't relax... Television programs creates a guilty feeling, or else it will force me to read the subtitles more often =] Despite my calmness never seems to rest in me but I had better yet to try to relax myself more often =[ It's either I overcome it or the fear living in me overtake my mindset... SO.... 2010 resolution to me is actually not exactly striving and soaring high for my grades, Inspite of whatever it takes, I am willing to commit myself relax =] It's a promised =] May God bless me XD Amen !!

All Doubts are Clearly revealed :

Hahas !! the first paragraph was not what my theme for today is about =] It is slightly related XD It's actually what I found out =]

So I will like to comprehend that all my new teachers are knowledgeable in his/her subject =] I failed to perceive them performing lousily in discipline issues hahas =] Specifically, I meant they have fullfilled my requirements =] How horrifying of me ! Judging the teachers without the teachers doubting me X.X It is for temperament only =] Hahas =] Preparing a long slip of recommendations and feedbacks =] AW! =] Although it is good to comment but have to go though the first procedure, which is politeness ! If I am not politeful enough, who would ever wants to take in my comments adn advices ! It is just logical =] Mankinds only listen when we are calm and polite, other situation, they usually will ignore or give a bad impression of that someone else XD Discovered I don't pinpoint anyone now ? As I realised no one is perfect, neither you nor I =] So who am I to judge people =] All of us aren't as superior as god =] Moreover He is the creator of the solar system =] I learned science chemistry =] They were explaining about atoms can't be located even with a microscope that magnifies 800 times but they still see nothing =] God is amazing =] He constructed the smallest matter in the whole universe =] Quite interesting =] Science stimulates and motivates us to use more of our imagination then any other subject =] Curiousity is a definitely a need if I want to become a scientist =] I used to have an ambition of becoming a famous scientist whom had notice some other thing =] After a long time, things changes from time to time XD Gradually I became more mature =] and so do everyone else =] Hahas =] whatever the case is, I love the way I am in now =] No regrets and no resentments =]

Description of my New Teachers :

Mrs Smahon, she's a very conscious teacher =] She does not want students to be in the state like her now =] So she would nurture us from what she had gone through =] some of my peers has a mindset with fraughts =[ So they will always never achieve what the unexpected was =] Hoping they will change and presevere more often, go forward and towards their ambition and desires XD May they rest assure they will succeed unless they willing to be optimistic XD Mr Foo, I have some inner feeling of him =] He is innovative =] There are certain parts which are censure XD It will offend the other party so better not to spread nonsensicals =] I believe that we should never judge a person by his look or his physical appearance =] The blinds and deafs have brighter life than those university graduated students =] Not a good reason to become like them =] They just showing us the possibility of surviving without hands, legs or mental disability ,etc. It shouldn't be the case whereby they can succeed but we are born with healthy body and illness-free and couldn't thrive for what we want =] In fact, it will be easier for us then them =] Work hard and rewards will be grand =] If you have a job, it is worth while to do it right =] Certain jobs I meant... Hahas that's about all =]



May God bless those who wish to succeed =] Amen !




I signed off with a..... SMILE =]

2010; My first Post

EXPLANATORY =] :

It's been quite a while since I didn't post any scripts =] Though I didn't post for a short term but still I was yearning something interest me to start writing again =] Well, there were plenty of things to share about =] Just the matter of me wanting to type =] Hahas =] You guys starting to sense my laziness =] It's alright =] Anyway I am guilty about it =] I felt that I had kept my words =[ As in the first ever day I created my blog, it was thrilling to post =] Now, things changes pretty fast =] Neither me nor you can help it =] Time just comes and goes away =] 2009, my most outstanding year ever ! =] I am so proud of myself despite my appearance and whatever genetics problems =.= I went to New Creation Christian church and they taught me many things that I had never heard or seen before =] Their values is meaningful =] God really love us and he take cares of us =]

There was once whereby they were interacting about appearance =] Rich people impress people who don't cares =] I have no doubt he is talking about me =] So I begin to make a change, instead of letting my appearance take over me, I shall take over my appearance =] I know how we all look are important but not as important as our self-judgement =] I watch a few episodes of ''Together;channel Eight, 9pm drama'' =] She spoken in mother tongue language =] I will do the translation =] ''Though everybody criticises you but you can't look down on yourself =]''. It is crucial =] Once you start giving up, you have high risk of falling off the cliff =] Hahas =]

2010 Brand New Experience for you and me =] :

I met my teachers and so far they are generally capable and reliable =] I just hope that they could explain and interpret well =] Mostly are new teachers =] Well, my Language teacher was pretty strict =] My mother tongue teacher is stimulative =] Oh yeah, promoted to 3A1, entirely new class =] It does not make any differences as in whether or not you are in which class =] We are learning the same topic and structure to strive in our examination =] I have some close friends together with me still ! I am grateful for that ! Thank God =] If not I will be discovering my challenges and adventures all alone =[ Pretty sulky feeling =[

Well, I promised whatever circumstances or set backs, I will never give up ! WE ARE NEVER BEATEN UNLESS WE QUIT ! =] I believe my future will bright =] Aiming to absorb as much knowledge as possible =] Whoever the teacher were, there's not an excuse for blaming them =]

I apologised as my post today will be short and simple =] Hope it do entertains you all =] Motivation to success is what I desire for =]

GOD BLESS YOU ALL !! I wish you all a PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR and a TROUBLE-FREE NEW YEAR !!

I sign off with a... SMILE =]