Today theme's is about celebrity type =] I woke up at 8.30am =] I was famished so could not sleep further =] I am under medication =] Just a little weak of me this few days =] Nothing to worry about anyway... It is my problem so nothing to do with you guys =] Moreover tomorrow will be meeting Soon Chuan and Mr Alex for filming session =] We will be planning what to shoot during the day =] I don't want to be absent tomorrow =]
The whole day I was watching some comedy =] It was my mother's favourite person =] She's Ella =] She also like F4 =] They are handsome and charming =] My parents watched the entire movie before =] They were very anxious to buy at that time =] They ran from place to place just to buy that DVD =] Seeing them so excited makes my life feel more lively =] If not it would be like some cemetry, we will do our own things without any concerns or comments given. At least now, my parents seemed rather relax now =] So I am very glad they are =] Their new hobby is gardening ! Everytime seeing them watering the plants at my corridoor =] The plants decorates my corridoor =] It feels more like a home to me =] The interior is beautiful =] It looks broaden and brighter =] Last time was plain and dull =[ Well, no point looking in the past =] Looking forward to the future will bring us greater meaning to our life =]
This few days kept raining. Even now it seems cloudy. Lightning flashes across the sky =] Thunder ruttling. Soon rain lashes on my window railings =] Wonderful weather for us to sleep =]
I guess that's about all =] See you guys soon =]
Nice melody =]
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
I know I posted this morning but never mind =]It's okay to post another =] I was listening to music the whole day =] I listened to a song and found it quite meaningful =] Without music and dance life would be meaningless =] So a girl was thankful for the music =] The music brings a joyous time =] Quite like it =] The only part I did not like was they hidden song behind another =[ So people might thing it is blank or over recorded so will skipped the song and move the following song =]
I hope you will be happier to see me in this state rather than self-criticising =] I know I said those harsh words which was unreasonable =] Hope you will understand =] I know it is not the first time =[ I know I always ask for forgiveness after every mistake I commited =[ I will assure you that this will be the last time. Promised.
That's about all =]
I hope you will be happier to see me in this state rather than self-criticising =] I know I said those harsh words which was unreasonable =] Hope you will understand =] I know it is not the first time =[ I know I always ask for forgiveness after every mistake I commited =[ I will assure you that this will be the last time. Promised.
That's about all =]
Suffering from my agonies
Monday, November 2, 2009
Hi guys, I posting early because I am suffering from depression... Yesterday had something that had happened.. I don't wish that would happen but I will not blame that person.. It's all my fault, all the war and commotion is me the one who created, laughters and lively conversations goes to that person... I don't know why this always appear in front of me! My mental emotion kills me, I blame myself, I will never blame my parents for the inheritation to me..
I guessed I have to continue with my life =] Too bad for me =] I WANT TO CHANGE ! WAITING FOR FORGIVENESS ! =[ It's very painful for me.. Thrilling me but I will turn them upside down... My tummy hurts more than before... The sourness and bitterness I can't stand further more =[ I had to be more optimistic =] Okay enough said =]
What I had I learned ? I learned not to be so BIG mouth, understand about the situation and most importantly , not letting my emotional take control of my life =] I think it is better for me to say something nicer if I want forgiveness =] The sense of guilt will never have rooms for improvement =] Yes, I am broken hearted, blue seems the day we parted but I will move on =]
^(@@)^ Give me another chance to serve you =]
That's all for today =] Seeing Soon chuan and Mr Alex soon =] So exciting =] We could laugh and play =] Can't wait =]
Batam Preparation =]
Today I woke up at 11.11am =] Quite a wonderful timing =] hahas =] Ask my parents buy the four numbers ^^ Just Kidding XD I am not a gambler =] Gambling only ruins my own future =] There's a slogan, it said 'Say NO! To gambling' =] Never mind =]
In the morning, I was terribly hungry so I was thinking what I am suppose to eat...Then an idea came across my mind =] I bought some mantou yesterday from NTUC =] Hahas =] Singaporeans favourite super market =] Cheap and fresh =] LOL ! I was so frustrated with the mantou =[ At first I was trying to remove the package but I could not find a scissors ! I tried tearing them by pulling horizontally but still failed to do so =[ There was too little allowance for the package to split open -.- Nevertheless, I found a nail clipper! Suddenly I felt a little relief =] I clipped at the end of one side and managed to tear them but it was a disaster ! It tore so quickly that three mantous dropped ! AH ! =[ It's okay =] Mantous don't have feelings =] I guessed I think too much =[ I always thought non-living thing had feelings =[ I always think that they were once a living thing but became a non-living things after that =[ Science will be affirmation of life after death =] After anything is being slaughtered or killed, they loses heat and eventually there's nothing left to convert into other forms of energy =[ Well, pigs are generally presdestinated to be slaughtered =[ Meanwhile I am a PIG fan =[ Quite a depressing thing to hear =[ Never mind =[ I am being too unrealistic -.- Hahas =] Continuing from here XD So I picked it up and washed it before steaming it =] I was very busy in the morning =[ I was washing and scrubbing utensils =[ My brother was just inconsiderate =[ Leaving without washing them thoroughly =[ Let's look on the bright side =] If I start washing plates and bowls, it would be a skill to learn also =] A dish washer maybe =] Obviously this is not my ambition =] So I started cleaning them without hatred kept inside me =] I left the mantou for steaming until it is ready to serve =] I ate five mantous and one cup of hot milo =] Listening to some music and eating =] Quite a blissful time I had in the morning =]
After I ate, I was again irritated with the left over mantou sticking on the steel wok =[ I took a knife and started scrapping off bits of the mantou =] By the I had finished, it was already 12.21 in the afternoon =[ Time passes that quickly =] I just hope that I could freeze where I am now =] Time never waits for us =] It just pass like nobody else business =] I did not know what to do next so I decided to pack my bag pack =] So again ironing my clothes and running about my home searching for the items =[ It was like folding wantons X.X =]
Soon, my parents returned =] I was surprised that my mum did not go for work today =[ She was ill again =[ My dad specially brought her back home to change and then set off together with her to consult a doctor =] I tagged along also since I had something to buy =] Meanwhile, it was raining cats and dogs outside =] I found everything I wanted =] I was quite stupid ! I bought two packs of triple A batteries which contains two alkaline batteries in each pack but later then I saw one pack which had four in one package and cost cheaper than what I bought =[ Whatever LA ! Give them the twenty cents ! Proceed on finding for track pants =] I discovered that Sports Link sells track pants and holding a sale ! =] So delighted =] Sorry for being a cheap stocker =] I prefer buying cheaper stuffs =] So tried it out and it FITTED nicely =] Bought two at a great deal =]
Got back home and the weather started change =] Rain poured heavily =] Lashing against the railing and droplets fill in my living room =] So relaxing =] Watch a couple of movies to destress myself =] Enjoy at the same time try to do something constuctive =] Tried talking to my friend but he left me alone because he was busy =] So I had no choice but to entertain myself =]
That's about all =] Meeting Mr Alex this thursday together with Soon Chuan for a training on filming =] It had not yet ended =] See you two then =] Enjoy ^(@@)^
In the morning, I was terribly hungry so I was thinking what I am suppose to eat...Then an idea came across my mind =] I bought some mantou yesterday from NTUC =] Hahas =] Singaporeans favourite super market =] Cheap and fresh =] LOL ! I was so frustrated with the mantou =[ At first I was trying to remove the package but I could not find a scissors ! I tried tearing them by pulling horizontally but still failed to do so =[ There was too little allowance for the package to split open -.- Nevertheless, I found a nail clipper! Suddenly I felt a little relief =] I clipped at the end of one side and managed to tear them but it was a disaster ! It tore so quickly that three mantous dropped ! AH ! =[ It's okay =] Mantous don't have feelings =] I guessed I think too much =[ I always thought non-living thing had feelings =[ I always think that they were once a living thing but became a non-living things after that =[ Science will be affirmation of life after death =] After anything is being slaughtered or killed, they loses heat and eventually there's nothing left to convert into other forms of energy =[ Well, pigs are generally presdestinated to be slaughtered =[ Meanwhile I am a PIG fan =[ Quite a depressing thing to hear =[ Never mind =[ I am being too unrealistic -.- Hahas =] Continuing from here XD So I picked it up and washed it before steaming it =] I was very busy in the morning =[ I was washing and scrubbing utensils =[ My brother was just inconsiderate =[ Leaving without washing them thoroughly =[ Let's look on the bright side =] If I start washing plates and bowls, it would be a skill to learn also =] A dish washer maybe =] Obviously this is not my ambition =] So I started cleaning them without hatred kept inside me =] I left the mantou for steaming until it is ready to serve =] I ate five mantous and one cup of hot milo =] Listening to some music and eating =] Quite a blissful time I had in the morning =]
After I ate, I was again irritated with the left over mantou sticking on the steel wok =[ I took a knife and started scrapping off bits of the mantou =] By the I had finished, it was already 12.21 in the afternoon =[ Time passes that quickly =] I just hope that I could freeze where I am now =] Time never waits for us =] It just pass like nobody else business =] I did not know what to do next so I decided to pack my bag pack =] So again ironing my clothes and running about my home searching for the items =[ It was like folding wantons X.X =]
Soon, my parents returned =] I was surprised that my mum did not go for work today =[ She was ill again =[ My dad specially brought her back home to change and then set off together with her to consult a doctor =] I tagged along also since I had something to buy =] Meanwhile, it was raining cats and dogs outside =] I found everything I wanted =] I was quite stupid ! I bought two packs of triple A batteries which contains two alkaline batteries in each pack but later then I saw one pack which had four in one package and cost cheaper than what I bought =[ Whatever LA ! Give them the twenty cents ! Proceed on finding for track pants =] I discovered that Sports Link sells track pants and holding a sale ! =] So delighted =] Sorry for being a cheap stocker =] I prefer buying cheaper stuffs =] So tried it out and it FITTED nicely =] Bought two at a great deal =]
Got back home and the weather started change =] Rain poured heavily =] Lashing against the railing and droplets fill in my living room =] So relaxing =] Watch a couple of movies to destress myself =] Enjoy at the same time try to do something constuctive =] Tried talking to my friend but he left me alone because he was busy =] So I had no choice but to entertain myself =]
That's about all =] Meeting Mr Alex this thursday together with Soon Chuan for a training on filming =] It had not yet ended =] See you two then =] Enjoy ^(@@)^
W2(i)
Sunday, November 1, 2009
Today woke up at 11.34am =] I dreamed of my primary five mathematics teacher teaching us mathematics =] We were learning some strange(Ostracize) method to solve some problems. I was late for the lesson and I was panicking because I did not understand anything from what the teachers had said X.X The funny thing was, my primary school mathematics teacher also got it mess up =] I said to myself 'Phew! That was a close call'. After I spoke that few words, I woke up and heard my handphone ringing...Alone in the Garden~. I think that it was the tone that made me make such dreams =] Nevertheless, I received two messages and one missed call from Pei Wen as well as Mr Alex. Mr Alex did not call me X.X Well, everyone is out today.. Not coming back until late midnight =[ I am all alone now =[ So decided to call back Pei Wen to ask whether I could go to his house to play his Wii which is today's theme =] Guessed you guys already know that he agreed so =] Kenny Chay tagged along also =]
Before going to Pei Wen's house, I was waiting for Kenny Chay at the back gate of the school's perimeter =] He asked me to wait for him there so I did it. On the contrary, I met him diagonally opposite at the bus stop near the carpark X.X Weird person =] Hahas. Along the way, talked to him, we laughed and joked around =] Imagining strange things like people crossing the road while there was a huge vehicle moving at their direction then hoping it would crash onto them =] LOL =] Terrible ! =] Just kinding actually =] Of course, we said to each other X.X On the journey down to the bus stop close to Pei Wen's house, a married woman with her daughter boarded... The mother successfully tapped her Cepas card on the scanner but her daughter failed X.X Then I told Kenny Chay, 跟我下车，下车 ！Softly =] Hahas =] Then he said Kao Pei -.- Hahas =] I packed something from the nearby coffee shop so that I could eat at Pei Wen's house =] I was famished X.X Reached Pei Wen's doorstep, Pei Wen had a grouchy face X.X It was as if he don't want anyone to distract him playing -.- Nevertheless, we were let in =] Actually does not matter whether he let us in or not =] I could just go back and relax =] It is even better than playing =] Playing will takes up memory from us =] Hahas =]
While I was eating, we were discussing about some tricks to make Pei Wen to entertain us X.X It is rude to leave the visitors alone while you enjoy yourself only =[ Unless the visitor wants to be free or else you had to find some way to make us feel comfortable =] Finally they came, we were about to leave but was stopped by his father X.X I felt quite sorry for his dad =[ Never mind =] We played for a few hours then find a little bored =[ So Kenny Chay took his leave first. I was alone with him in the living room. Sudden silent =[ So at the end, we played a game that helps me to increase my excitement =] Left at about 5pm =] That video game was straining my eyes so I don't want to play anymore =[ It was because it had been a long term that I had not play high graphical games =[ I think I don't want to play anymore =[ Better maintain my standards than to lose everything =[
My tummy was aching again when walking to the bus stop =[ I returned home and proceeded to the toilet first =[ I hope it will stop =[ Batam trip arriving =[ I don't wish to have my tummy destroying my upcoming fun adventure =[
That's all for today =] See you guys soon =]
Before going to Pei Wen's house, I was waiting for Kenny Chay at the back gate of the school's perimeter =] He asked me to wait for him there so I did it. On the contrary, I met him diagonally opposite at the bus stop near the carpark X.X Weird person =] Hahas. Along the way, talked to him, we laughed and joked around =] Imagining strange things like people crossing the road while there was a huge vehicle moving at their direction then hoping it would crash onto them =] LOL =] Terrible ! =] Just kinding actually =] Of course, we said to each other X.X On the journey down to the bus stop close to Pei Wen's house, a married woman with her daughter boarded... The mother successfully tapped her Cepas card on the scanner but her daughter failed X.X Then I told Kenny Chay, 跟我下车，下车 ！Softly =] Hahas =] Then he said Kao Pei -.- Hahas =] I packed something from the nearby coffee shop so that I could eat at Pei Wen's house =] I was famished X.X Reached Pei Wen's doorstep, Pei Wen had a grouchy face X.X It was as if he don't want anyone to distract him playing -.- Nevertheless, we were let in =] Actually does not matter whether he let us in or not =] I could just go back and relax =] It is even better than playing =] Playing will takes up memory from us =] Hahas =]
While I was eating, we were discussing about some tricks to make Pei Wen to entertain us X.X It is rude to leave the visitors alone while you enjoy yourself only =[ Unless the visitor wants to be free or else you had to find some way to make us feel comfortable =] Finally they came, we were about to leave but was stopped by his father X.X I felt quite sorry for his dad =[ Never mind =] We played for a few hours then find a little bored =[ So Kenny Chay took his leave first. I was alone with him in the living room. Sudden silent =[ So at the end, we played a game that helps me to increase my excitement =] Left at about 5pm =] That video game was straining my eyes so I don't want to play anymore =[ It was because it had been a long term that I had not play high graphical games =[ I think I don't want to play anymore =[ Better maintain my standards than to lose everything =[
My tummy was aching again when walking to the bus stop =[ I returned home and proceeded to the toilet first =[ I hope it will stop =[ Batam trip arriving =[ I don't wish to have my tummy destroying my upcoming fun adventure =[
That's all for today =] See you guys soon =]
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