Suffering from my agonies

Hi guys, I posting early because I am suffering from depression... Yesterday had something that had happened.. I don't wish that would happen but I will not blame that person.. It's all my fault, all the war and commotion is me the one who created, laughters and lively conversations goes to that person... I don't know why this always appear in front of me! My mental emotion kills me, I blame myself, I will never blame my parents for the inheritation to me..

I guessed I have to continue with my life =] Too bad for me =] I WANT TO CHANGE ! WAITING FOR FORGIVENESS ! =[ It's very painful for me.. Thrilling me but I will turn them upside down... My tummy hurts more than before... The sourness and bitterness I can't stand further more =[ I had to be more optimistic =] Okay enough said =]

What I had I learned ? I learned not to be so BIG mouth, understand about the situation and most importantly , not letting my emotional take control of my life =] I think it is better for me to say something nicer if I want forgiveness =] The sense of guilt will never have rooms for improvement =] Yes, I am broken hearted, blue seems the day we parted but I will move on =]

^(@@)^ Give me another chance to serve you =]

That's all for today =] Seeing Soon chuan and Mr Alex soon =] So exciting =] We could laugh and play =] Can't wait =]