Lonely ? Does it bothers ?

For me, I am quite an EMO person... Generally not favourable to the others =] Hahas but never mind, hope it will get better after some time =] Amen !

Well, I am quite a demanding person =[ For instance, I expect people to treat me well ! I know it is impossible if I do not even take the first step to treat people nicely at first =[ Guess that is me !

I talked to Yu lun during our break time in Republic Polytechnic- I am having a 5-day course work (Material Science) =] Yu lun and I actually have quite similar characteristic =] I promised not to leak the message so I shall not =] By the way, that is the best way to maintain trust in one another =] At least for me =]

I loved my lecturer =] He is quite a decent looking guy =] He is very knowledgeable in his own particular subject and mathematics too =] Maybe I should learn to speak like him =] Mr Andy =] A brilliant teacher =] He taught us efficiently =] He even helped me in my assignments ; mainly science and mathematics =] I am thankful and grateful for his time spend to help me solve the problems =] *Especially during his break time* =] He is a sympathetic person =] He has deep feelings for those special category type of people which needs extra attention and care =]

Milfirt who is in our group often been despised and asked to shut his mouth up whenever he tries to inquire something ._. Mr Andy gave a stern look at the class .... There was moment of seriousness ! Quite scary -.- After the class ended, Milfirt bolted out of the class and Mr andy stopped us from leaving the room ... He talked to us about special people =] Like I mentioned earlier he is a sympathetic person so he gave us more scenario of the cruelty being displayed by humans ... His tone increased as he speaks further =] HE is very careful with himself as he can control his anger and frustration quite well =]

This teacher has quite a unique type of personality =] He looks quite like a drama actor =] Good looking guy =] Bright career =] He always ask me if I had any problems with my maths or science... Since the first day I stepped into the class =] Cool ! From what I see, seldom there is such teachers around =]

I am out of my main topic here ! -.- Distracted =] Sudden thoughts of mine =] I feel great when I praise other people but myself ! lol =]

Back to my main theme =] I mean I have this extremely weird jealousy of people that is very close to me ! IT has been haunting me all day long =[ I prayed to God to cleanse me and it is working but somehow it is still in my mind =[ What did I do to avoid such situation ? I just avoid that person and not communicating to him/her... I find more happiness when I am not with anyone close to me =] IT causes me not to think about that person =]

During the process of rehearsal, I am quite alone =] Not blaming them but myself =] Hahas Mostly, I will just go home if I have the chance to =] The strongest weakness I had with my closer friends is that interest ! I love astronomy and everything that associates with science or nature, while the other person likes IT and design -.- Two different types ! Difficult for me =[ Therefore, lack of interest =] See the linking and connection problem ? =[ Never mind about that =]

I guess I will end off here =] I better not carry on or else I will be sued for insulting and critising IT lovers =] Seriously no offend, just an example =] Go ahead and love your IT while I enjoy the nature =] Tomorrow, tt will be a marvellous and thrilling day =] Amen ! Amen ! =] I should care for myself more instead of caring about others =] Selfish but I have no other choice =]







I will end off with a........ SMILE =]