Fan spoilt !?
Today, every period were double =[ It was like brain washing time =[ Many recaps of previous year syllabus =[ For chemistry and physics, both are completely foreign to me =[ Part of the chapter I understood but mostly blurred out =[ Slowly I am capturing what the teacher is explaining =] I am of course glad about that =[ I am not oblivous =] I am able remember certain things for years and still fresh in my head =] This few days, I was capricious =[ I left my book under the table but fortunately, I retrieved it back =[ After a few days, there again I left my file underneath the desk and just walked off the classroom without knowing =[ Once I am thrilled about something, I always forget those various location like underneath the desk which I placed my books =] Now of course it is gradually improving =] I will make an attempt to bend my spine and take a glance so as to ensure I don't leave anything behind =[ I get worried easily =[ Especially those notebooks and important stuff =[
My church said ''Worrying causes the pipe to be strangled!'' Meaning to say that the pipe is flowing calmness but because of my emotional anxiety, I am actually strangling the pipe which provide me the necessary wisdom and clarity =] It has been provided by God =] So we can't blame the God for not giving us the things we did not see =] The church services really teaches us many meaningful scenario and cruxial knowledge about the Bible; God's words =] I started praying for goodness and guidance from God when I was moody and depressed =] The following day, I had no recalls upon my yesterday's sobbers =] I beginning to feel his existence =] There was another time whereby I lost my file which contains some confidential details on a hardcopy paper =] Not really important but just don't want it to be exposed to everyone else =] So I prayed to God and the following day I found my file at Mrs Smahon class =]
It was this Monday which we had double English periods with Mrs Smahon =] So I was engaged in my reading, totally had no idea of checking underneath the file =] So there was a sudden thought which I doubt it was my own personal thought. I began feeling for the file and I felt something, I was extremely relief at that moment of time =] I am very sure that God was the one behind all this =] Amen ! XD
You know how I was feeling just now? I was petrified when my fan screw couldn't be tighten =[ I was seeking for help but there weren't =[ Nobody was at home except me =[ It all happened like this : I was intending to wash the fan because it was covered with dirt so the vandilation seems blocked by the dirt =] I unscrewed the screw and I heard some crispy sound =[ That was the time whereby I was astonished ! The contents in the screw chipped off =[ Oh my Gosh LOL ! I am dead meat ! I started punching my father's number frantically and hopefully he will be able to pick up my call =[ I don't want to keep it from them (My parents)... After all, it is their property ! Finally, they gave me a call and asked me what's the matter =[ I was afraid of telling them the tragedy =[ I took in a deep breath and told them all about it =] They were silent for a few seconds and I felt peculiar =[ I thought they would have rebuked but instead they told me not to fearful =] I felt a calmness inside me after I spoken to them =] If there's a need to change the fan, I am willing to compensate =] All the while, I was the one using it so I am the one responsible for my facilities used =]
A phobia living inside me =[ :
There was something I feared of losing =[ Every night I always come about thos virtual imagination happening to me in future =[ I always hope that will not happen =[ I am afraid of losing someone =[ It is difficult for me to let that person leave me =[ He is my everything =[ I once was lost but that person was the one who grap me from my darkness and pull me out of that place with an absence of vitality =[ It is getting more real =[ I better stop posting before it comes true as our mind is a powerful generator =[ It makes everything revealed after some time =] So better stay optimistic XD
I will pray to God, hoping he will guide me along together to understand that person more =]
I end off with a........ SMILE =]
Losing rest =[
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Reasons for that( Losing Rest) :
Apologies for disappearing for a couple weeks without updating my blog =[ You guys could consider my blog as lonely... simply because I seriously dont have spare time to type out =[ I had plenty of thoughts and feelings in me =[ Just find it complicated to express out to my dear readers =[ My homework are exceedingly increasing from zero to four or five assignments instantaneously =[ It is quite terrifying to experience such condition suddenly =[ But it was expected early before I hit 2010 =] Challenges arises and problems overflowing =[ I am a little frustrated to the fact that I am always distracted by a subtle noise made by the surroundings =[ Especially while reading a storybook in the morning =[ The first moment I had it and just a few seconds later, someone raises their voice, I lost track of where I am =[ I have to cultivate the habit of focusing and concentrating =] I am quite glad that it is gradually improving XD There's nothing to panic or worry about as I can't control others mouth =[ It's their vocal so it depends on that particular person =] I am learning efficiently =] I am quite contented with my progress from 4th of January untill now =] At least I was able to absorb and understand whatever the teachers are emphasising =] Most wonderful thing is, Chemistry and Physics lessons are split into two different classes =] It is to enhance the ability to teach and eliminate as much doubts as possible from the students... For certain reason, our class is huge =] I am still getting the names and observing them closely =] I don't want to mix around with those trouble makers as it will end up miserably =]
Despite of exhaustion, I still generate nightmares, horrifying ones =[ It will result me in fatigue and tensions =[ Really attempted to calm myself down at night =[ It is tough =[ Apart from studies, I still have to attend rehearsals for Mr Alex Musical 'Believe' =] I don't want to disappoint him so I have to work intensively to train my vocal =[ As a first timer, there are numerous of mistakes made, so I have to constantly listen attentively and develop a sombre attitude towards learning =] Character ''Su Zi'', I am still investigating =] I do know what it actually means =] Other than that, I have to watch over my food intake =[ Simply because I have to protect my voice =]
Enough whining or neither grousing =[ I am just feel isolated =[ So just wanted to expose my inner thoughts to everyone =] Hoping you will response and receive useful information regarding my personal enigma =]
One more important fact =] Discovered I don't have anymore entertainments in my blog anymore ? It is just plain context =] Well, I can't resolve it so turn on your own favourite music instead and enjoy each and every part of my sharings =]
I end off with a..... SMILE =]
Apologies for disappearing for a couple weeks without updating my blog =[ You guys could consider my blog as lonely... simply because I seriously dont have spare time to type out =[ I had plenty of thoughts and feelings in me =[ Just find it complicated to express out to my dear readers =[ My homework are exceedingly increasing from zero to four or five assignments instantaneously =[ It is quite terrifying to experience such condition suddenly =[ But it was expected early before I hit 2010 =] Challenges arises and problems overflowing =[ I am a little frustrated to the fact that I am always distracted by a subtle noise made by the surroundings =[ Especially while reading a storybook in the morning =[ The first moment I had it and just a few seconds later, someone raises their voice, I lost track of where I am =[ I have to cultivate the habit of focusing and concentrating =] I am quite glad that it is gradually improving XD There's nothing to panic or worry about as I can't control others mouth =[ It's their vocal so it depends on that particular person =] I am learning efficiently =] I am quite contented with my progress from 4th of January untill now =] At least I was able to absorb and understand whatever the teachers are emphasising =] Most wonderful thing is, Chemistry and Physics lessons are split into two different classes =] It is to enhance the ability to teach and eliminate as much doubts as possible from the students... For certain reason, our class is huge =] I am still getting the names and observing them closely =] I don't want to mix around with those trouble makers as it will end up miserably =]
Despite of exhaustion, I still generate nightmares, horrifying ones =[ It will result me in fatigue and tensions =[ Really attempted to calm myself down at night =[ It is tough =[ Apart from studies, I still have to attend rehearsals for Mr Alex Musical 'Believe' =] I don't want to disappoint him so I have to work intensively to train my vocal =[ As a first timer, there are numerous of mistakes made, so I have to constantly listen attentively and develop a sombre attitude towards learning =] Character ''Su Zi'', I am still investigating =] I do know what it actually means =] Other than that, I have to watch over my food intake =[ Simply because I have to protect my voice =]
Enough whining or neither grousing =[ I am just feel isolated =[ So just wanted to expose my inner thoughts to everyone =] Hoping you will response and receive useful information regarding my personal enigma =]
One more important fact =] Discovered I don't have anymore entertainments in my blog anymore ? It is just plain context =] Well, I can't resolve it so turn on your own favourite music instead and enjoy each and every part of my sharings =]
I end off with a..... SMILE =]
2010 Believe !
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
My First Rehearsal =] :
Hahas =] Today post is about my first rehearsal before the up coming Musical ''Believe'' XD I was quite enthusiastic about the first rehearsal =] Nervous at the same time X.X Fortunately didn't fool around during the rehearsal moment =] I was concentrating and focusing on my weakness and strongest =] As I can't always looked at my weakness, it will cause a depressing expression upon myself, meaning that I don't have any well to speak about myself =] Although I learned from my mistakes, there are some point whereby I need to speak good of myself =] So as to avoid such confliction between my emotion and actions =] Once I start to acquire such pessimistic thoughts of myself, it is merely possible for me to absorb anything at the moment =]
Okay enough about that =] It is my first ever huge project that I ever participate in =] Actually I was persuaded by Mr Alex to join in the cast members =] He spoke to me numerous of benefit and he encourages me a lot =] But even through all his persuation, everything lies within me after all =] If I don't wish to take part, there's nothing Mr Alex could do as he is not God =] I had lost many marvellous opportunity to develop myself in many ways =] Always end up rejecting or giving excuses to get away with it =[ So I wasted so many chances, now I will seize every opportunity given to me =] It is not about the training that counts, it is my attitude that counts =] It is the main talent we all had in ourselves =] The talent is waiting for us to develop them into our future life =] Mr Alex told me an interesting story, God gave everyone of us a coin(as in talent). So the first guy, made use of it and ending up with 10 coins and the second fellow earned 5 coins, the last guy was terrible, he instead of nurturing it, he burried into the garden of his own... In the end, he remains only one coin, so he blamed God who did not give him the talent he prayed for... It is like slapping the God's face back, He gave us already and is waiting for us to react to it =] This year supposed to be the year of REST ! =] Not rest from work but rest in work =] They are both two seperate meaning =] Well, you guys will know when you attend church services =] They are extremely meaningful =] The number 7 is a number of perfection =] If you guys think that I am trying to deceive you, count the number of days in a week, how many colours are there in a rainbow, etc. =] It is scientifically proven =] We learned that through physics =] Surprising wonders =] Well, all I have to do is be attentive as well as practice more often when I have the spare time =] Oh I forgotten something Mr Alex told me when I asked him something about talent =] He told me ''At the end of the Musical, your talent is determined by your attitude you have during rehearsals'' =] It was awesome ! Meaning to say no matter how professional you are, if you are lack of discipline or narrowed thinker, you will never go far ahead than those who are committed in accepting others opinions and criticises =] So it all depends on your attitude towards learning =] Not only applies in musical rehearsals or concert, studies are important too =] The way we gain our knowledge of that particular subject is cruxial =] Once we have doubts and hatreds of the teacher, it will be impossible for us to absorb =] So better be conscious about our mindset =] Let you and me work towards our dreams =] BELIEVE 2010 will be the most prosperous and trouble-free new year =] Not too late to make adjustments =] XD
Oh yeah, I will be representing Sembawang Secondary, I am in charge of bringing crowd to Believe Musical from my own school =] So hope you will come to support us =]
Basketball with my peers =] :
I played basketball with Chun Liang, Xiang Xiang, Soon Chuan, Jedrek, Si Kai, Kenny Ng, Edwin Foo, Li Wei, Nicholas and Chin Yong today =] Had a joyous afternoon =] Though exhausted but thrilling =]
I hardly able to grab hold of the ball and score into the net =[ It makes me feel so useless but... I refused to look at that angle, it is just too ridiculous =] In a team, there are no such happening =] Everyone gives contribution in some point =] I mentioned previously on my blog's post =] Other people can look down on you but you must stand up for yourself =] So choosing to stand up for myself will give better concept of myself =]
It same applies to everyone in this whole society =] No one is perfect, neither you nor I =] So you can't expect someone to be perfect when you are not far beyong it =] You know who I am refering to (This is for my classmates) XD Certain things are negotiable and some things are not =] Cherish what we have now and appreciate it more so we can achieve better in future =] Happiness in Hard times =] Really a marvellous book and Informative book =] What Mrs Smahon said today is completely reasonable =] What we hear or see is distorted =] Simply because we take rumours and gossips too seriously, creating more suspicion on them, doubts will lead to lack of trust in other people =] Everything has a link =] Our body are connected together =] If you perceive me in lying again, try straining your eyes =] Why we obtain a headache after that =] That defines that everything is connected =] Alright Enough of everything =] I am tired =]
I end off with a....... SMILE =]
Hahas =] Today post is about my first rehearsal before the up coming Musical ''Believe'' XD I was quite enthusiastic about the first rehearsal =] Nervous at the same time X.X Fortunately didn't fool around during the rehearsal moment =] I was concentrating and focusing on my weakness and strongest =] As I can't always looked at my weakness, it will cause a depressing expression upon myself, meaning that I don't have any well to speak about myself =] Although I learned from my mistakes, there are some point whereby I need to speak good of myself =] So as to avoid such confliction between my emotion and actions =] Once I start to acquire such pessimistic thoughts of myself, it is merely possible for me to absorb anything at the moment =]
Okay enough about that =] It is my first ever huge project that I ever participate in =] Actually I was persuaded by Mr Alex to join in the cast members =] He spoke to me numerous of benefit and he encourages me a lot =] But even through all his persuation, everything lies within me after all =] If I don't wish to take part, there's nothing Mr Alex could do as he is not God =] I had lost many marvellous opportunity to develop myself in many ways =] Always end up rejecting or giving excuses to get away with it =[ So I wasted so many chances, now I will seize every opportunity given to me =] It is not about the training that counts, it is my attitude that counts =] It is the main talent we all had in ourselves =] The talent is waiting for us to develop them into our future life =] Mr Alex told me an interesting story, God gave everyone of us a coin(as in talent). So the first guy, made use of it and ending up with 10 coins and the second fellow earned 5 coins, the last guy was terrible, he instead of nurturing it, he burried into the garden of his own... In the end, he remains only one coin, so he blamed God who did not give him the talent he prayed for... It is like slapping the God's face back, He gave us already and is waiting for us to react to it =] This year supposed to be the year of REST ! =] Not rest from work but rest in work =] They are both two seperate meaning =] Well, you guys will know when you attend church services =] They are extremely meaningful =] The number 7 is a number of perfection =] If you guys think that I am trying to deceive you, count the number of days in a week, how many colours are there in a rainbow, etc. =] It is scientifically proven =] We learned that through physics =] Surprising wonders =] Well, all I have to do is be attentive as well as practice more often when I have the spare time =] Oh I forgotten something Mr Alex told me when I asked him something about talent =] He told me ''At the end of the Musical, your talent is determined by your attitude you have during rehearsals'' =] It was awesome ! Meaning to say no matter how professional you are, if you are lack of discipline or narrowed thinker, you will never go far ahead than those who are committed in accepting others opinions and criticises =] So it all depends on your attitude towards learning =] Not only applies in musical rehearsals or concert, studies are important too =] The way we gain our knowledge of that particular subject is cruxial =] Once we have doubts and hatreds of the teacher, it will be impossible for us to absorb =] So better be conscious about our mindset =] Let you and me work towards our dreams =] BELIEVE 2010 will be the most prosperous and trouble-free new year =] Not too late to make adjustments =] XD
Oh yeah, I will be representing Sembawang Secondary, I am in charge of bringing crowd to Believe Musical from my own school =] So hope you will come to support us =]
Basketball with my peers =] :
I played basketball with Chun Liang, Xiang Xiang, Soon Chuan, Jedrek, Si Kai, Kenny Ng, Edwin Foo, Li Wei, Nicholas and Chin Yong today =] Had a joyous afternoon =] Though exhausted but thrilling =]
I hardly able to grab hold of the ball and score into the net =[ It makes me feel so useless but... I refused to look at that angle, it is just too ridiculous =] In a team, there are no such happening =] Everyone gives contribution in some point =] I mentioned previously on my blog's post =] Other people can look down on you but you must stand up for yourself =] So choosing to stand up for myself will give better concept of myself =]
It same applies to everyone in this whole society =] No one is perfect, neither you nor I =] So you can't expect someone to be perfect when you are not far beyong it =] You know who I am refering to (This is for my classmates) XD Certain things are negotiable and some things are not =] Cherish what we have now and appreciate it more so we can achieve better in future =] Happiness in Hard times =] Really a marvellous book and Informative book =] What Mrs Smahon said today is completely reasonable =] What we hear or see is distorted =] Simply because we take rumours and gossips too seriously, creating more suspicion on them, doubts will lead to lack of trust in other people =] Everything has a link =] Our body are connected together =] If you perceive me in lying again, try straining your eyes =] Why we obtain a headache after that =] That defines that everything is connected =] Alright Enough of everything =] I am tired =]
I end off with a....... SMILE =]
A slight converstion =]
Saturday, January 9, 2010
A conversation with Xiang Xiang :
Today after my CCA, I received a message from Jia hui and Lyn as they were asking me out to study in the library which made me shocked.... Well, my sentiments exactly, it turns out to be the controversy -.- Well, didn't expect that but at least done some of my mathematical sums =] It's the new beginning of the year, so meeting up with challenges is generally obvious =]
We left the library just an hour since I sat down and started solving my mathematical problem =[ Quite pathetic right ! Their persistence in studies are so limited -.- Well, never mind, it does not matter to me as they have their own reasons and excuses, it does matter to my precious 2010 time =] So we went to a foreign place named ''Fu Shan'', whatever the spelling as it it is new to me but not to them because they often hang around there for some sort of excitement =] I can't imagine myself playing Catching with one another -.- It's just like recalling my old image of me... Playful and making nuisance out of it =] Well, that was the past, work towards the future it's better =] Though it will be a permanent scar, but if with anticipating changes to my personality and characteristic, I believe the scar will recover =] Meaning to make it a positive tragic =] Being optimistic is yet to be tedious but manageable =] Always hearing others saying ''Be positive and don't be pessimism about our thoughts'' with ease ! Yes, true ! The resolution is HOW to become which make everyone giving up =] Like me, always believe the untruth then the realistic =] It's complicated =] Moreover, everyone hates people telling them how to react to certain problems =] It's interesting isn't it ? People go around telling how to live right where they are having a hard time trying to listen to others opinion of them =] Amazing =] Even me also get confuse!
Okay! Resuming my actual topic =] I was talking about Xiang and me chatting on the way back on the train =] We were communicating about our past studies and some private but not so =] I questioned him ''Do you speak with your family members ?'' He replied ''I do it often and especially my sister! Mostly ending up quarreling '' =] So he return my question. I was a little paralysis ''I don't have such exciting moments all the time but I do have doubts =]''. Not completely negative but there are some memorable time =] I always try remembering all the joyous time, it seems very complex thing to do.... This year I have many resolution apart from academics.... There are many inner setbacks that cause that to =] It's alright =] I made quite a good progress through a couple of years =] If not I will not be here telling my own personal historical moments -.-
I had many things to emphasise on but just find it complicated to say =]
I end off with a..... SMILE =]
My New sport =]
Friday, January 8, 2010
Something unbelievable had been twist into one of my favourite =] :
Cool today post seems to be similar like what our ''Beloved'' teacher, Mrs Smahon, had interpret to us yesterday and today =] Hahas XD At first, I didn't expect that basketball was within my reach but slowly, playing a few rounds, I began to develop my interest in that particular sport =] That sport train us to jump high and higher co-ordination required while playing...
Well, I must confirm something that, everything we do starts with listening =] Hey ! You guys know something attracting on television advertisement hahas Prudential and their slogan is ''Always listening and something which I could not remember'' =] I think I got it ''Always listening and understanding'' just a rough estimation of the slogan =] Seriously, I couldn't say it is entirely the same meaning as what our English teacher has taught as it neither any disaster about that nor something joyous had happened in the beginning hahas =] It is quite an unexpected thing that something I usually dislike had been a controversy feeling -.- I actually do have a motivation when I started playing basketball =] My standing broad jump normally doesn't exceed 200 cm -.- So hopefully jumping will make my thigh muscles fitter and firmer =] Hahas =] I admit that when I play I usually act a little sloppy as in slow in reaction and weak -.- Not the first time someone had inform me that, maybe, couple of times already... So if I don't change the way I am, no one else would ! Meaning if I don't change the way I performed, probably will not see any changes upon my previous general performance.... =] I read a book which had taught values of life =] Many common thoughts and feelings were expressed in the book which many people being pessimism with their emotion and mindset =] Once, we had the determination of anything, our mind will work towards it ultimately =]
I spoken to Soon Chuan that, I don't know, he was finding some complication in generating ideas for mother tongue homework which also drive me crazy when I was doing... Fortunately, I wasn't insane after that -.- Amen ! =] I told him ''Our mind does not understand the meaning of I don't know''. Looking at the author's perspective in the book, I was in a state of dilemma... Of course we do understand fully on what is I don't know, just that the mind will never get it =] You know what I meant ? =] Never mind if you don't =] As I am also quite devastated =] I will reconstruct it =] but the meaning remains the same =] It is like a mental movie playing in our mind, example we are in an absent of everything that entertains you so you were obliged to find something else to do, ''I don't know what to do'' you said with ease =] But instead of doing nothing, your mind will starting working for something to substitute with our monotony of excitement =] There, I made a new affirmation =] Read it a few times, you will get it soon =] My English aren't difficult to interpret =]
Okay okay =] Enough of explanations =] Enjoy =]
I signed off with a.... SMILE =]
My Doubts are over !
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Fear that living inside me for a life time LONG :
Yesterday night, I made a terrible nightmare and causes me to toss and turn around the bed... This wasn't the first time I had nightmares that made me frightened to the point whereby I had to rise up from my bed, perspiring ! I aren't sure why my mind just couldn't relax... Everyone says I always look tenser than them... but I feel that I am not !! Though all this nightmares proven to me that it was caused by excessive use of my mind... No wonder it seems rather tough for me to post everytime I begin attempting to type =] Perhaps, it is because of my anxiety... Well, sharing to my dear readers as to give an relevant excuse why nowadays I seriously had some mental mermory blocked and somehow or rather it is still in my mind circulating but just can't recall at all ! It used to be that kind of stage whereby I couldn't even remember a single thing during a diagnostic test ! My mind went as blank as a clean sheet of paper... I slowly began to realised how it had affected me so much than I expected... I tend to calm down by watching some telly programs but it always end up having a sense of guilt inside me =[ Or I tend to focus and concentrate on whatever that was appearing on the screen of the television =[ Sadly, it became my habitual as in I just can't relax... Television programs creates a guilty feeling, or else it will force me to read the subtitles more often =] Despite my calmness never seems to rest in me but I had better yet to try to relax myself more often =[ It's either I overcome it or the fear living in me overtake my mindset... SO.... 2010 resolution to me is actually not exactly striving and soaring high for my grades, Inspite of whatever it takes, I am willing to commit myself relax =] It's a promised =] May God bless me XD Amen !!
All Doubts are Clearly revealed :
Hahas !! the first paragraph was not what my theme for today is about =] It is slightly related XD It's actually what I found out =]
So I will like to comprehend that all my new teachers are knowledgeable in his/her subject =] I failed to perceive them performing lousily in discipline issues hahas =] Specifically, I meant they have fullfilled my requirements =] How horrifying of me ! Judging the teachers without the teachers doubting me X.X It is for temperament only =] Hahas =] Preparing a long slip of recommendations and feedbacks =] AW! =] Although it is good to comment but have to go though the first procedure, which is politeness ! If I am not politeful enough, who would ever wants to take in my comments adn advices ! It is just logical =] Mankinds only listen when we are calm and polite, other situation, they usually will ignore or give a bad impression of that someone else XD Discovered I don't pinpoint anyone now ? As I realised no one is perfect, neither you nor I =] So who am I to judge people =] All of us aren't as superior as god =] Moreover He is the creator of the solar system =] I learned science chemistry =] They were explaining about atoms can't be located even with a microscope that magnifies 800 times but they still see nothing =] God is amazing =] He constructed the smallest matter in the whole universe =] Quite interesting =] Science stimulates and motivates us to use more of our imagination then any other subject =] Curiousity is a definitely a need if I want to become a scientist =] I used to have an ambition of becoming a famous scientist whom had notice some other thing =] After a long time, things changes from time to time XD Gradually I became more mature =] and so do everyone else =] Hahas =] whatever the case is, I love the way I am in now =] No regrets and no resentments =]
Description of my New Teachers :
Mrs Smahon, she's a very conscious teacher =] She does not want students to be in the state like her now =] So she would nurture us from what she had gone through =] some of my peers has a mindset with fraughts =[ So they will always never achieve what the unexpected was =] Hoping they will change and presevere more often, go forward and towards their ambition and desires XD May they rest assure they will succeed unless they willing to be optimistic XD Mr Foo, I have some inner feeling of him =] He is innovative =] There are certain parts which are censure XD It will offend the other party so better not to spread nonsensicals =] I believe that we should never judge a person by his look or his physical appearance =] The blinds and deafs have brighter life than those university graduated students =] Not a good reason to become like them =] They just showing us the possibility of surviving without hands, legs or mental disability ,etc. It shouldn't be the case whereby they can succeed but we are born with healthy body and illness-free and couldn't thrive for what we want =] In fact, it will be easier for us then them =] Work hard and rewards will be grand =] If you have a job, it is worth while to do it right =] Certain jobs I meant... Hahas that's about all =]
May God bless those who wish to succeed =] Amen !
I signed off with a..... SMILE =]
Yesterday night, I made a terrible nightmare and causes me to toss and turn around the bed... This wasn't the first time I had nightmares that made me frightened to the point whereby I had to rise up from my bed, perspiring ! I aren't sure why my mind just couldn't relax... Everyone says I always look tenser than them... but I feel that I am not !! Though all this nightmares proven to me that it was caused by excessive use of my mind... No wonder it seems rather tough for me to post everytime I begin attempting to type =] Perhaps, it is because of my anxiety... Well, sharing to my dear readers as to give an relevant excuse why nowadays I seriously had some mental mermory blocked and somehow or rather it is still in my mind circulating but just can't recall at all ! It used to be that kind of stage whereby I couldn't even remember a single thing during a diagnostic test ! My mind went as blank as a clean sheet of paper... I slowly began to realised how it had affected me so much than I expected... I tend to calm down by watching some telly programs but it always end up having a sense of guilt inside me =[ Or I tend to focus and concentrate on whatever that was appearing on the screen of the television =[ Sadly, it became my habitual as in I just can't relax... Television programs creates a guilty feeling, or else it will force me to read the subtitles more often =] Despite my calmness never seems to rest in me but I had better yet to try to relax myself more often =[ It's either I overcome it or the fear living in me overtake my mindset... SO.... 2010 resolution to me is actually not exactly striving and soaring high for my grades, Inspite of whatever it takes, I am willing to commit myself relax =] It's a promised =] May God bless me XD Amen !!
All Doubts are Clearly revealed :
Hahas !! the first paragraph was not what my theme for today is about =] It is slightly related XD It's actually what I found out =]
So I will like to comprehend that all my new teachers are knowledgeable in his/her subject =] I failed to perceive them performing lousily in discipline issues hahas =] Specifically, I meant they have fullfilled my requirements =] How horrifying of me ! Judging the teachers without the teachers doubting me X.X It is for temperament only =] Hahas =] Preparing a long slip of recommendations and feedbacks =] AW! =] Although it is good to comment but have to go though the first procedure, which is politeness ! If I am not politeful enough, who would ever wants to take in my comments adn advices ! It is just logical =] Mankinds only listen when we are calm and polite, other situation, they usually will ignore or give a bad impression of that someone else XD Discovered I don't pinpoint anyone now ? As I realised no one is perfect, neither you nor I =] So who am I to judge people =] All of us aren't as superior as god =] Moreover He is the creator of the solar system =] I learned science chemistry =] They were explaining about atoms can't be located even with a microscope that magnifies 800 times but they still see nothing =] God is amazing =] He constructed the smallest matter in the whole universe =] Quite interesting =] Science stimulates and motivates us to use more of our imagination then any other subject =] Curiousity is a definitely a need if I want to become a scientist =] I used to have an ambition of becoming a famous scientist whom had notice some other thing =] After a long time, things changes from time to time XD Gradually I became more mature =] and so do everyone else =] Hahas =] whatever the case is, I love the way I am in now =] No regrets and no resentments =]
Description of my New Teachers :
Mrs Smahon, she's a very conscious teacher =] She does not want students to be in the state like her now =] So she would nurture us from what she had gone through =] some of my peers has a mindset with fraughts =[ So they will always never achieve what the unexpected was =] Hoping they will change and presevere more often, go forward and towards their ambition and desires XD May they rest assure they will succeed unless they willing to be optimistic XD Mr Foo, I have some inner feeling of him =] He is innovative =] There are certain parts which are censure XD It will offend the other party so better not to spread nonsensicals =] I believe that we should never judge a person by his look or his physical appearance =] The blinds and deafs have brighter life than those university graduated students =] Not a good reason to become like them =] They just showing us the possibility of surviving without hands, legs or mental disability ,etc. It shouldn't be the case whereby they can succeed but we are born with healthy body and illness-free and couldn't thrive for what we want =] In fact, it will be easier for us then them =] Work hard and rewards will be grand =] If you have a job, it is worth while to do it right =] Certain jobs I meant... Hahas that's about all =]
May God bless those who wish to succeed =] Amen !
I signed off with a..... SMILE =]
2010; My first Post
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
EXPLANATORY =] :
It's been quite a while since I didn't post any scripts =] Though I didn't post for a short term but still I was yearning something interest me to start writing again =] Well, there were plenty of things to share about =] Just the matter of me wanting to type =] Hahas =] You guys starting to sense my laziness =] It's alright =] Anyway I am guilty about it =] I felt that I had kept my words =[ As in the first ever day I created my blog, it was thrilling to post =] Now, things changes pretty fast =] Neither me nor you can help it =] Time just comes and goes away =] 2009, my most outstanding year ever ! =] I am so proud of myself despite my appearance and whatever genetics problems =.= I went to New Creation Christian church and they taught me many things that I had never heard or seen before =] Their values is meaningful =] God really love us and he take cares of us =]
There was once whereby they were interacting about appearance =] Rich people impress people who don't cares =] I have no doubt he is talking about me =] So I begin to make a change, instead of letting my appearance take over me, I shall take over my appearance =] I know how we all look are important but not as important as our self-judgement =] I watch a few episodes of ''Together;channel Eight, 9pm drama'' =] She spoken in mother tongue language =] I will do the translation =] ''Though everybody criticises you but you can't look down on yourself =]''. It is crucial =] Once you start giving up, you have high risk of falling off the cliff =] Hahas =]
2010 Brand New Experience for you and me =] :
I met my teachers and so far they are generally capable and reliable =] I just hope that they could explain and interpret well =] Mostly are new teachers =] Well, my Language teacher was pretty strict =] My mother tongue teacher is stimulative =] Oh yeah, promoted to 3A1, entirely new class =] It does not make any differences as in whether or not you are in which class =] We are learning the same topic and structure to strive in our examination =] I have some close friends together with me still ! I am grateful for that ! Thank God =] If not I will be discovering my challenges and adventures all alone =[ Pretty sulky feeling =[
Well, I promised whatever circumstances or set backs, I will never give up ! WE ARE NEVER BEATEN UNLESS WE QUIT ! =] I believe my future will bright =] Aiming to absorb as much knowledge as possible =] Whoever the teacher were, there's not an excuse for blaming them =]
I apologised as my post today will be short and simple =] Hope it do entertains you all =] Motivation to success is what I desire for =]
GOD BLESS YOU ALL !! I wish you all a PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR and a TROUBLE-FREE NEW YEAR !!
I sign off with a... SMILE =]
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