I spoilt my fan !

Fan spoilt !?

Today, every period were double =[ It was like brain washing time =[ Many recaps of previous year syllabus =[ For chemistry and physics, both are completely foreign to me =[ Part of the chapter I understood but mostly blurred out =[ Slowly I am capturing what the teacher is explaining =] I am of course glad about that =[ I am not oblivous =] I am able remember certain things for years and still fresh in my head =] This few days, I was capricious =[ I left my book under the table but fortunately, I retrieved it back =[ After a few days, there again I left my file underneath the desk and just walked off the classroom without knowing =[ Once I am thrilled about something, I always forget those various location like underneath the desk which I placed my books =] Now of course it is gradually improving =] I will make an attempt to bend my spine and take a glance so as to ensure I don't leave anything behind =[ I get worried easily =[ Especially those notebooks and important stuff =[

My church said ''Worrying causes the pipe to be strangled!'' Meaning to say that the pipe is flowing calmness but because of my emotional anxiety, I am actually strangling the pipe which provide me the necessary wisdom and clarity =] It has been provided by God =] So we can't blame the God for not giving us the things we did not see =] The church services really teaches us many meaningful scenario and cruxial knowledge about the Bible; God's words =] I started praying for goodness and guidance from God when I was moody and depressed =] The following day, I had no recalls upon my yesterday's sobbers =] I beginning to feel his existence =] There was another time whereby I lost my file which contains some confidential details on a hardcopy paper =] Not really important but just don't want it to be exposed to everyone else =] So I prayed to God and the following day I found my file at Mrs Smahon class =]

It was this Monday which we had double English periods with Mrs Smahon =] So I was engaged in my reading, totally had no idea of checking underneath the file =] So there was a sudden thought which I doubt it was my own personal thought. I began feeling for the file and I felt something, I was extremely relief at that moment of time =] I am very sure that God was the one behind all this =] Amen ! XD

You know how I was feeling just now? I was petrified when my fan screw couldn't be tighten =[ I was seeking for help but there weren't =[ Nobody was at home except me =[ It all happened like this : I was intending to wash the fan because it was covered with dirt so the vandilation seems blocked by the dirt =] I unscrewed the screw and I heard some crispy sound =[ That was the time whereby I was astonished ! The contents in the screw chipped off =[ Oh my Gosh LOL ! I am dead meat ! I started punching my father's number frantically and hopefully he will be able to pick up my call =[ I don't want to keep it from them (My parents)... After all, it is their property ! Finally, they gave me a call and asked me what's the matter =[ I was afraid of telling them the tragedy =[ I took in a deep breath and told them all about it =] They were silent for a few seconds and I felt peculiar =[ I thought they would have rebuked but instead they told me not to fearful =] I felt a calmness inside me after I spoken to them =] If there's a need to change the fan, I am willing to compensate =] All the while, I was the one using it so I am the one responsible for my facilities used =]

A phobia living inside me =[ :

There was something I feared of losing =[ Every night I always come about thos virtual imagination happening to me in future =[ I always hope that will not happen =[ I am afraid of losing someone =[ It is difficult for me to let that person leave me =[ He is my everything =[ I once was lost but that person was the one who grap me from my darkness and pull me out of that place with an absence of vitality =[ It is getting more real =[ I better stop posting before it comes true as our mind is a powerful generator =[ It makes everything revealed after some time =] So better stay optimistic XD



I will pray to God, hoping he will guide me along together to understand that person more =]










I end off with a........ SMILE =]