A slight converstion =]

A conversation with Xiang Xiang :

Today after my CCA, I received a message from Jia hui and Lyn as they were asking me out to study in the library which made me shocked.... Well, my sentiments exactly, it turns out to be the controversy -.- Well, didn't expect that but at least done some of my mathematical sums =] It's the new beginning of the year, so meeting up with challenges is generally obvious =]

We left the library just an hour since I sat down and started solving my mathematical problem =[ Quite pathetic right ! Their persistence in studies are so limited -.- Well, never mind, it does not matter to me as they have their own reasons and excuses, it does matter to my precious 2010 time =] So we went to a foreign place named ''Fu Shan'', whatever the spelling as it it is new to me but not to them because they often hang around there for some sort of excitement =] I can't imagine myself playing Catching with one another -.- It's just like recalling my old image of me... Playful and making nuisance out of it =] Well, that was the past, work towards the future it's better =] Though it will be a permanent scar, but if with anticipating changes to my personality and characteristic, I believe the scar will recover =] Meaning to make it a positive tragic =] Being optimistic is yet to be tedious but manageable =] Always hearing others saying ''Be positive and don't be pessimism about our thoughts'' with ease ! Yes, true ! The resolution is HOW to become which make everyone giving up =] Like me, always believe the untruth then the realistic =] It's complicated =] Moreover, everyone hates people telling them how to react to certain problems =] It's interesting isn't it ? People go around telling how to live right where they are having a hard time trying to listen to others opinion of them =] Amazing =] Even me also get confuse!

Okay! Resuming my actual topic =] I was talking about Xiang and me chatting on the way back on the train =] We were communicating about our past studies and some private but not so =] I questioned him ''Do you speak with your family members ?'' He replied ''I do it often and especially my sister! Mostly ending up quarreling '' =] So he return my question. I was a little paralysis ''I don't have such exciting moments all the time but I do have doubts =]''. Not completely negative but there are some memorable time =] I always try remembering all the joyous time, it seems very complex thing to do.... This year I have many resolution apart from academics.... There are many inner setbacks that cause that to =] It's alright =] I made quite a good progress through a couple of years =] If not I will not be here telling my own personal historical moments -.-

I had many things to emphasise on but just find it complicated to say =]

I end off with a..... SMILE =]

My New sport =]

Something unbelievable had been twist into one of my favourite =] :

Cool today post seems to be similar like what our ''Beloved'' teacher, Mrs Smahon, had interpret to us yesterday and today =] Hahas XD At first, I didn't expect that basketball was within my reach but slowly, playing a few rounds, I began to develop my interest in that particular sport =] That sport train us to jump high and higher co-ordination required while playing...

Well, I must confirm something that, everything we do starts with listening =] Hey ! You guys know something attracting on television advertisement hahas Prudential and their slogan is ''Always listening and something which I could not remember'' =] I think I got it ''Always listening and understanding'' just a rough estimation of the slogan =] Seriously, I couldn't say it is entirely the same meaning as what our English teacher has taught as it neither any disaster about that nor something joyous had happened in the beginning hahas =] It is quite an unexpected thing that something I usually dislike had been a controversy feeling -.- I actually do have a motivation when I started playing basketball =] My standing broad jump normally doesn't exceed 200 cm -.- So hopefully jumping will make my thigh muscles fitter and firmer =] Hahas =] I admit that when I play I usually act a little sloppy as in slow in reaction and weak -.- Not the first time someone had inform me that, maybe, couple of times already... So if I don't change the way I am, no one else would ! Meaning if I don't change the way I performed, probably will not see any changes upon my previous general performance.... =] I read a book which had taught values of life =] Many common thoughts and feelings were expressed in the book which many people being pessimism with their emotion and mindset =] Once, we had the determination of anything, our mind will work towards it ultimately =]

I spoken to Soon Chuan that, I don't know, he was finding some complication in generating ideas for mother tongue homework which also drive me crazy when I was doing... Fortunately, I wasn't insane after that -.- Amen ! =] I told him ''Our mind does not understand the meaning of I don't know''. Looking at the author's perspective in the book, I was in a state of dilemma... Of course we do understand fully on what is I don't know, just that the mind will never get it =] You know what I meant ? =] Never mind if you don't =] As I am also quite devastated =] I will reconstruct it =] but the meaning remains the same =] It is like a mental movie playing in our mind, example we are in an absent of everything that entertains you so you were obliged to find something else to do, ''I don't know what to do'' you said with ease =] But instead of doing nothing, your mind will starting working for something to substitute with our monotony of excitement =] There, I made a new affirmation =] Read it a few times, you will get it soon =] My English aren't difficult to interpret =]

Okay okay =] Enough of explanations =] Enjoy =]

I signed off with a.... SMILE =]

My Doubts are over !

Fear that living inside me for a life time LONG :

Yesterday night, I made a terrible nightmare and causes me to toss and turn around the bed... This wasn't the first time I had nightmares that made me frightened to the point whereby I had to rise up from my bed, perspiring ! I aren't sure why my mind just couldn't relax... Everyone says I always look tenser than them... but I feel that I am not !! Though all this nightmares proven to me that it was caused by excessive use of my mind... No wonder it seems rather tough for me to post everytime I begin attempting to type =] Perhaps, it is because of my anxiety... Well, sharing to my dear readers as to give an relevant excuse why nowadays I seriously had some mental mermory blocked and somehow or rather it is still in my mind circulating but just can't recall at all ! It used to be that kind of stage whereby I couldn't even remember a single thing during a diagnostic test ! My mind went as blank as a clean sheet of paper... I slowly began to realised how it had affected me so much than I expected... I tend to calm down by watching some telly programs but it always end up having a sense of guilt inside me =[ Or I tend to focus and concentrate on whatever that was appearing on the screen of the television =[ Sadly, it became my habitual as in I just can't relax... Television programs creates a guilty feeling, or else it will force me to read the subtitles more often =] Despite my calmness never seems to rest in me but I had better yet to try to relax myself more often =[ It's either I overcome it or the fear living in me overtake my mindset... SO.... 2010 resolution to me is actually not exactly striving and soaring high for my grades, Inspite of whatever it takes, I am willing to commit myself relax =] It's a promised =] May God bless me XD Amen !!

All Doubts are Clearly revealed :

Hahas !! the first paragraph was not what my theme for today is about =] It is slightly related XD It's actually what I found out =]

So I will like to comprehend that all my new teachers are knowledgeable in his/her subject =] I failed to perceive them performing lousily in discipline issues hahas =] Specifically, I meant they have fullfilled my requirements =] How horrifying of me ! Judging the teachers without the teachers doubting me X.X It is for temperament only =] Hahas =] Preparing a long slip of recommendations and feedbacks =] AW! =] Although it is good to comment but have to go though the first procedure, which is politeness ! If I am not politeful enough, who would ever wants to take in my comments adn advices ! It is just logical =] Mankinds only listen when we are calm and polite, other situation, they usually will ignore or give a bad impression of that someone else XD Discovered I don't pinpoint anyone now ? As I realised no one is perfect, neither you nor I =] So who am I to judge people =] All of us aren't as superior as god =] Moreover He is the creator of the solar system =] I learned science chemistry =] They were explaining about atoms can't be located even with a microscope that magnifies 800 times but they still see nothing =] God is amazing =] He constructed the smallest matter in the whole universe =] Quite interesting =] Science stimulates and motivates us to use more of our imagination then any other subject =] Curiousity is a definitely a need if I want to become a scientist =] I used to have an ambition of becoming a famous scientist whom had notice some other thing =] After a long time, things changes from time to time XD Gradually I became more mature =] and so do everyone else =] Hahas =] whatever the case is, I love the way I am in now =] No regrets and no resentments =]

Description of my New Teachers :

Mrs Smahon, she's a very conscious teacher =] She does not want students to be in the state like her now =] So she would nurture us from what she had gone through =] some of my peers has a mindset with fraughts =[ So they will always never achieve what the unexpected was =] Hoping they will change and presevere more often, go forward and towards their ambition and desires XD May they rest assure they will succeed unless they willing to be optimistic XD Mr Foo, I have some inner feeling of him =] He is innovative =] There are certain parts which are censure XD It will offend the other party so better not to spread nonsensicals =] I believe that we should never judge a person by his look or his physical appearance =] The blinds and deafs have brighter life than those university graduated students =] Not a good reason to become like them =] They just showing us the possibility of surviving without hands, legs or mental disability ,etc. It shouldn't be the case whereby they can succeed but we are born with healthy body and illness-free and couldn't thrive for what we want =] In fact, it will be easier for us then them =] Work hard and rewards will be grand =] If you have a job, it is worth while to do it right =] Certain jobs I meant... Hahas that's about all =]



May God bless those who wish to succeed =] Amen !




I signed off with a..... SMILE =]

2010; My first Post

EXPLANATORY =] :

It's been quite a while since I didn't post any scripts =] Though I didn't post for a short term but still I was yearning something interest me to start writing again =] Well, there were plenty of things to share about =] Just the matter of me wanting to type =] Hahas =] You guys starting to sense my laziness =] It's alright =] Anyway I am guilty about it =] I felt that I had kept my words =[ As in the first ever day I created my blog, it was thrilling to post =] Now, things changes pretty fast =] Neither me nor you can help it =] Time just comes and goes away =] 2009, my most outstanding year ever ! =] I am so proud of myself despite my appearance and whatever genetics problems =.= I went to New Creation Christian church and they taught me many things that I had never heard or seen before =] Their values is meaningful =] God really love us and he take cares of us =]

There was once whereby they were interacting about appearance =] Rich people impress people who don't cares =] I have no doubt he is talking about me =] So I begin to make a change, instead of letting my appearance take over me, I shall take over my appearance =] I know how we all look are important but not as important as our self-judgement =] I watch a few episodes of ''Together;channel Eight, 9pm drama'' =] She spoken in mother tongue language =] I will do the translation =] ''Though everybody criticises you but you can't look down on yourself =]''. It is crucial =] Once you start giving up, you have high risk of falling off the cliff =] Hahas =]

2010 Brand New Experience for you and me =] :

I met my teachers and so far they are generally capable and reliable =] I just hope that they could explain and interpret well =] Mostly are new teachers =] Well, my Language teacher was pretty strict =] My mother tongue teacher is stimulative =] Oh yeah, promoted to 3A1, entirely new class =] It does not make any differences as in whether or not you are in which class =] We are learning the same topic and structure to strive in our examination =] I have some close friends together with me still ! I am grateful for that ! Thank God =] If not I will be discovering my challenges and adventures all alone =[ Pretty sulky feeling =[

Well, I promised whatever circumstances or set backs, I will never give up ! WE ARE NEVER BEATEN UNLESS WE QUIT ! =] I believe my future will bright =] Aiming to absorb as much knowledge as possible =] Whoever the teacher were, there's not an excuse for blaming them =]

I apologised as my post today will be short and simple =] Hope it do entertains you all =] Motivation to success is what I desire for =]

GOD BLESS YOU ALL !! I wish you all a PROSPEROUS NEW YEAR and a TROUBLE-FREE NEW YEAR !!

I sign off with a... SMILE =]

Laughters everwhere !!

Welcome Back my fellow readers =]

Hi hi =] It's been long since I didn't post any scripts =] Apologies for my laziness =] As there are numerous subject I don't wish to share =] Hahas =] Firstly, I appreciate your patience for my upcoming post =] And therefore, welcome back to my blog's website =]

A Wishing =]:

I will like to wish you all a MERRY CHRISTMAS and A HAPPY NEW YEAR !! This year christmas is blessed =] Next year, 2010 will be the best year ever =] Sorry, just being sacarstic =] In fact, it will be filled with excitement and challenges awaiting you to compete with it =] Impossible is nothing =] Just do it ! =] Erm, copyright, too dangerous =] I rephrase Nothing is impossible to do =] Whatever the case or circumstances, try it =] You will never know that it will be useful one day =]

My very first Job =]:

Today was my first and ever day that I started to do part time =] I always mumble to myself and always grumbling about the cons of part time job and never talk about the pros =[ So I just stuck on my chair and daydream.... Sooner or later I realised that this is not going to last me long as my time to start working for money is arriving =] It was monday or couldn't remember which day but never mind... Jia Hui phoned me and told me that his Da gu needs helper to lighten her job weight =] At first, I was curious and shocked ! Slowly I recall back what Mr Alex said about me that it sunken deep down my heart... so I immediately agreed =] I can't believe I was so fortunate! I get new opportunity =] I got to experience what's being a salesman like and the toughness of the job =] The more complex the situation is, the easier it is to be done and the easier problem is, the harder it is to be completed or accomplished =] Very logical principle =] Hope you heard or seen before =] Okay for example, you were leading among four groups who were still way behind....so you decided to take a break and slack for a time period =] The one who is not leading gets the priority and started to chase up =] As soon as the leading group leaps to the ending line... Guessed what ! The unleading groups had already won =] So to make it simpler to understand, the first shall be the last and the last shall be the first =] Not very Difficult to understand I hope =] Hahas =] I am still my old writer habits =]

Review on my Day =]:

I imagined my employer as quite a fierceful looking woman but turned out to be a kind soul =] She's a little conscious about the little bits of setbacks =] Hahas =] It's alright =] I learned a lot from her =] I really like to thank her for hiring me as a part timer =] She's slightly witty =] Hahas =] The rest were alright =] Of course, I was said by her because I folded the uniform untidily =] It's perfectly fine as being reprimanded or scolded is a must if you are doing the incorrect things =] In the morning, 5.30 am =] Surprisingly, I wasn't tired at all =] Cool =] I went to take a hot bath and then set off slowly down to woodlands to meet up Jia hui =] Arrived at Yew tee at around 6.40am =] Her aunt's brother gave us a ride to Dunearn Secondary =] Hahas =] On the way there, Jia hui's aunt didn't know the school name so her brother was quite confuse on which way to go =] Finally, she recalled some memories of that particular road =] Thank god ! So we arrived at the school's entrance slightly later =] We went straight to put our bags down at the place where we are going to hold the sales there =] We grabbed heavy bags of uniform, skirts and shorts down to the canteen =] Unpacked everything and started organising them respectively =] Ranging from the smallest to the biggest size =] So we won't get confuse as to where is it =] It was still early, so her aunt suggested that we should all go take our breakfast before it's too late =] So headed to the nearest coffee shop and bought nasi lemak to eat =] When we stepped in the canteen, they started serving the customers already hahas =] First batch ! Follow up by massive rage of parents and students =] They were thronging through the queue just to get to my counter -.- I had a little knowledge on doing sales so just smile and apologise -.- I had to apologise because I kept them waiting for so long as I was serving other customer -.- Seriously, oen short two to three came in fornt of me and demanding for sizes for their kids ! -.- Of course I was quite annoyed but kept smiling =] At the same time, laughing and laughing =] Actually there's nothing humourous about it =] Just my favourite excercise =] Laugh more and you live longer =] Actually that's the true =] miserable people either suffers from mental breakdown or cause nervous system to shut down and even double the risk of heart disease and other problems =] Stay cheerful =] Since everything have a solution to resolve it =] There's nothing unsolvable =] Pain are temporary =] Cancer is permanent =] Choose the right option =] Not easy, I must say but it is still managable =] So beware of what you yearn for =] Consequences can be minor or major =] Continuing, the rest was just packing back all the uniform back to it's original place =] Quite a exhausting job =] Everything is in chaos -.- Took merely two hours to clear up the entire compound =] Argh ! Not to worry =] I was trained before =]

SGB was my first toughest appointment =] Why I called it a appointment, the primers just point here and point there -.- Rubbish =] But it's true ! SGB (Sharity Gift Box) =] Cool right =] Twelve hours per day =] Nine to nine =] Saturday and Sunday =] It's not an easy thing to do =] Waking up in the morning at 6am where you only slept for five hours is the most tedious thing =] My mind went quite blank =] It's over =] It's all worth it learned so much more about the surroundings and human nature =] The poverty of those staying in one or two rooms flat =[ Stench that they couldn't resist =] So there's always hope =] We put a smile on their faces =] That's what the main objective of that program =] From there, generosity is the key and the gratitude you are giving =] Accepting one anothers strategies =] Working together as a TogetherEveryoneAchieveMore =] Few minds is stronger than one mind =] Carrying loadful of stuffs and manoeuvring a category to another ! Whoah ! It is merely impossible to get it done by two days =.= Milo tins were uncountable -.- It's terrible =] I had a plan on my head before getting started =] So I could organise them with ease =] More or less you know what's happening =]

Bowling and Billard =] :

After the long morning, beginning to get more restless =] But my sense of humour are still active =] Laughing like mad =] I was playing bowling all by myself =[ Stupid voucher only allows for personal usage and not applicable to others =[ So I was like, WHAT !? Alone playing -.- Three pairs of eyes looking upon my scores and how I was playing -.- Damn irritating la =[ Moreover, I played lousily -.- Does not matter =] Seldom people have the courage to play alone infront of their friends -.- HA ! Well all depends on that person =] Either he will be considerating on others thoughts and feelings =] Obviously I not saying myself heartless -.- It is just because the voucher is expiring soon ! I had no choice but not to wait any longer and started to bowl alone -.- Thousand apologies to them for mistreating them =[ I am the one who was behind all this plannings -.- So I am the one to be blame =] Next time, I will not let it happen again ! -.- So threw a few times then it's over =] HAHAs =] My fingers aching now =] My persistence are quite strong =] I could tolerate long enough =] typing the scrip out =]

Next we played billard =] Gosh ! That was totally CRAP ! I didn't even know how to play !! It was my third time or second time =[ It was a huge pool somemore =[ I played even lousier =[ Probably worse than a novice =[ I am just a beginner ! Fear what =] Everyone can learn =] I just don't believe that I can't play well =] So flung the ball many times, Jia hui, Xiang Xiang and me kept laughing non-stop -.- Like laughing maniac =] Weird ! Even when I walked down the stairs also laugh =] Guess today I have lost my mind =[ It's alright, once in a while =] I just told a lie =[ XD Hahas =] It's a JOKE ! Laugh ! =] Okay la =] Ending here =]

Ending off =] :

Hope I could save my explanation through this long history =] I will like to wish you all again a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year =] God bless all of us =]

I will end off with a... SMILE =]

Fun Camp =]

Today I am going to talk about my camp =] Quite a frantic camp to me =[ The worst thing was that I was late for the camp =[ I woke up at 11am... then when I almost step in the bathroom, my mum yell at me.... I was of course awaken by her yell... She was yelling at me because of my previous phone bill that cost 200+ bucks =[ I seriously don't know what was the Lucky number registration and the Local Data usage ! I was quite freak out =[ So I phoned Mr Alex for more details on the both unknown stuffs =[ They didn't include the date for the usage =[ so totally not sure whether what I press =[ Never mind XD

Camping description =]

It was obviously an exciting and fun filling atmosphere camp XD I am always yearning for that moment =] I totally enjoy myself =] Just the first day, can't imagine =] Probably because I was in high spirits =] Everything to me seems contenting to me =]

Firstly we were grouped into four different categories =] There were actually prince, witch, chipmunk and fatty =] It was taken from a movie called 'Enchanted' =] It's very soothing musical =] Quite funny =] I could get those active people =[ Perhaps, I was just too comprehensive =[ I gotten those quite dead people =[ It was just the beginning... Thank God =] There are one or two more joining our group =] So I think I just have to bear with it for a little while =]

The first game was something like grabbing water balloons while we were blind-folded with a piece of black garbage bag =] No worries, it is sterile I hope ! =] Our group was quite funny =] I have one team mate who I don't really like him because he is just too arrogant and irritating =[ I have another team member who is over conscious... At first was alright, after a period of time it gets annoying ! I don't know what to say -.- He has some phobia living inside him =[ Forget, don't want to insult people like that =] He is intelligent =] No matter what he still part of the team spirit =] Together Everyone Achieve More =] This was adapted from my previous trip to Indonesia =] One of the instructor told us when we were doing our High element rope course =] Okay continuing from here =]

Second game was blowing bubbles to form a BB 13 Coy shape =] It was quite fun but because of my team kept giving up =[ So I was quite annoy by their defeated spirits =[ Could not even make any single bubble =[ Never mind =]

Third game was using two ice cream sticks to grab the marble =] Transporting them into a mug =] It was quite fun though =] First time =] Impressive planning =] It's a warm welcome to the camp =]

Forth game was constructing a bridge that can hold ten 500ml water bottles filled to the brim =] I had an idea when they were speaking but my team members kept insisting on theirs =[ So totally screw up =[ Damn sad =[ Never mind still =]

Next was the workshop =] Our assistant chaplin was giving a speech on stress =] He shared with us great varieties of de-stressing techniques and what are the signs and symptoms of stress =] quite an interesting talk =]

I will skipped all the way to camp fire =] It was the most memorable time =] Singing along with the fire =] Dancing round the camp fire =] Performing our skid =] Hahas that's really all =]

Signing off here =]

I end off with a... SMILE =]

Travelling one to one

Today woke up at 11am =] I was quite surprise that I could wake up so early no doubt I slept so late last night as I was watching some movie on MobTv Select =] Never mind since awaken why bother =] So I was thinking how should I start the day then, stay at home or go out to take a long stroll back... So i thought of it that maybe understand more on my friend's background so called some of my friends, perceiving if they are able to go out with me =] Many people gave reasons that they are engaged so didn't really force them to stroll around with me. Lastly, I thought of one person who said if I want to find someone to accompany with, I can find her =] So there she is Jia Hui =] Very nice and pleasant girl =] So it was decided that we both would meet at Sembawang tain station =]

At first I was pretty nervous as it was my first time going out with a girl alone... So why not give it a try =] Met her at the station and we planned where to head to our first destination =] She was wavered to where we should go so in the end, I picked orchard since then I discovered that she don't really know well of that place =] As Orchard was the most well-known town area where tourist attractions are also at that town, so kind of curious why she don't know the place well.... On the way in the train, we were chatting about ''What have you been doing over the first month of Second long term break and other miscellaneous question'' =] So it was only she and me travelling, feeling quite awkward as that was my very first time =] We reached and alighted at Orchard station. So told her that we going to circulate the area respectively =] ION was not chosen as our place we go because she had already gone there before =] So never mind, went to Wisma Atria to walk around =] Wisma area does not have many things attractive to see so went to Wheelock place hahas =] The main idea was to go to Borders to browse for some books =] IF there's books that I want to read, unfortunately, no =] So whatever, blah blah blah =] Suddenly, I thought of an idea since she's new to Orchard town so why not walk down to Plaza Singapura since there are more things to look =]

Confusion was the first problem that struck my head... there are many different roads, so I was in a dilemma =[ So in the end, gave up and took the train down to Dhoby ghaut Inter. =]

Before entering to the train station so I felt a little hungry so went for a lunch and she went for a drink at Xing Wang Cafe =] Well, didn't want to give a poor impression of people so gave her a treat at Xing Wang since it was my ideal to have lunch there =] When we went in, quickly ordered our food and beverages so that we could proceed on with our discussion of some human kind =] Interestingly, I really don't know that I can speak better and calmly with girls then guys... Not I don't want to is just some kind of phobia =] Whatever la =] Not despising anyone here though =] Just my preference =] So communicate more on others than us =] Which is good also =] The bill was not expensive so don't mind =] Left the place and descent down to the train station =]

When we arrived at the top of the station, I realised my instincts was correct.... Whatever la =] Went on inside as the weather is terribly humid and scorching =[ Woah! Only cool breeze within our area =] So loitered around the entire shopping mall within 2 hours =] Quite miraculous actually no =] We didn't really go in to look at most of the stalls =] We went in to Daiso to look at some artificial stuffs =] Recommended her that anything expensive at popular you can buy at Daiso as the Slogan says ''Always 2 dollars =]''. I bought a notebook for next year =] Hahas =] Wanted to buy a huge box for my old books and notes so that it would be neater in the sense =] Or else my mum is going to scream and complain =]

We both agreed to go back home since there's nothing really interesting or fascinating that is happening =] We took the North East Line and Circle Line as she didn't have the experience before =] Her opportunities are limited so when there's chance, should just try =] Unlike me, I can go anywhere I want =] except overseas X.X Hahas =]

What a memorable day is today =] I used to be shy and timid, so always lonely during school holidays =] So secondary life, I want to make it as memorable as possible =]

So signing off =] Don't worry I still able to talk to guys as much as to girls -.- =]

End off with a... SMILE =]